I have been thinking alot about our conversation. You know the one where we got mad at each other, and missed what we were saying..... You were talking about people who seem so resigned in their daily lives, their mundane day -in- day out existence, that they forget who they wanted to be. They get so set on surviving, they forget to live. You said you were choosing life and passion over what may look like the "responsible" choice to everyone else. You said you were not talking about me at all...
But guess what, Sammy-Sue.. you kind of were...
See I have been really fixed and set on "survival" So hell bent on "I can do this, watch me" So busy making responsible and expected choices...so set in my routine and my need to do things right that I forgot a few things. Like who I am. Like what I LOVE.
So, Sam.. as usual, my good friend who always speaks truth into my life. ( even when it may be inadvertant) Thank you. For waking me up, and making me think. Reminding me that just because I do have some big responsibilities on my shoulders, I am not locked in to a mundane existance. ( not that life with two year old twins is boring, mind you) I was created for Life, Abundant! Not a wait on something or someone to come around and make it better, but a go find it, dig for it, or maybe just be open to it kind of life.
What does this mean, you ask? I am not sure. But I think it looks like me applying to Grad School, writing that song with Jenny, walking through what I am afraid of, and some road trips... for a start!
Love, your friend, Lacey
