Better think about the about the wish I make
This year gone by ain’t been a piece of cake
Everyday’s a revolution
Pull it together and it comes undone
Just one more candle and a trip around the sun"
In two days, I will be 32. When I was younger, I used to think 30 was seriously old. Imagined myself married, settled house, kids... 3 out of four isn't bad, right? I have this thing about birthdays. Its a love/hate really. On one hand, I love them, its a day about me, right? Celebrating, cake, presents, people.. What's not to love? On the other hand, there always seems to be a melancholy that surrounds me. Its a time to look back over the last year or so, to think of what is to come. To re-evaluate. And don't even get me started on expectations. I have alot of those, and they never quite seem live get lived up to. ( too high perhaps?) The last two years most certainly have been difficult. By far the most difficult of my 32 years. But I started thinking about all the things I have learned, seen and done. And I started making a mental list, as I do with anything. I like lists. So, I thought I would share it, one more to mark the year gone by.
So, here it is, David Letterman Style.
TOP TEN THINGS I HAVE LEARNED SINCE TURNING 30
10. I like lists
9. I have an awesome family. No really, I do. Like above average, loud messy, get in your business, going outta our way to help you family.
8. I am really really lucky to work where I do, with the people I work with. People who rotate through our department are always saying what an awesome and unique bunch we are to enjoy working with each other so much! I know it nots always easy, but seriously.. its a weird little family, and I will keep it, thank you!
7. I need to stop and rest more. I am really really bad about just sitting, putting my feet up and chillin. I really do need to do this more. I need to write that down.
6.I like teenagers. Its a weird, smelly, bratty group, but they have my heart and I love them. If you are a ground zero kid or warehouser that I know and you are reading this, you pretty much rock my face off. Love you, mean it.
5. I have some really really good friends. Sometimes when you go through a whole lotta crap, people just "poof" out and disappear. I can't say that hasn't been the case, I can't say that friendships haven't changed or ended, that I haven't been hurt or judged by those I loved the most. But I can say that I have such an incredible group of people walking with me, surrounding me and loving me and Nathan and Noah that it literally takes my breath away sometimes. I really hope and pray that I am the same to all of you!
4. A best friend is priceless. I have been blessed to have called several of you a best friend. And while I have lots of best friends, I think every girl needs a Bestest Best Friend, one who doesn't have to ask how you are, they know. They see through your mask and call you out and you them. They celebrate and cry with you. You could see them all day for 8 hours and call them on the way home because you forgot one more thing. They bring out the Jesus in you and you in them. Jen, I thank God for you every day!!! Love you, but you knew that already.
3. I go to a weird church. Yep, its weird, its unconventional. But its not plastic or legalistic. It is a come as you are, is that all you got? kind of place where people are for real and speak truth into my life. I love you GLC.
2. My children are the best parts of me. They are funny and delightful, they are sneaky and smart. They are inquisitive and make no bones about what they need and what they want. Their faces light up a room and light up my heart. Without them, my life would be boring.
1. GOD IS GOOD. No really, He is. If I can say that despite the circumstances that I have walked through, it MUST be true. I see it every.single.day. His Grace, His Mercy, His Plan for each of us. God is good, ALL THE TIME. ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD.
So, bring on 32.
"Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:13-14
Love, Lacey
